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A simple trip to Las Vegas was not what I wanted to do this past weekend.  The HEAT was my biggest fear.  I remember going there two years ago... And i hated it because it was so damn hot...and the car ride over there was terrible!!!  So yeah...that was how i felt on the way to Vegas Saturday morning.  The reason why we were going there was because my mom and aunt promised their friend that they would see her niece's concert with some filipino dude who used to be famous back in the day.  *BIG DEAL* right? hmmm thats what i thought.  My sister and I were not going to the concert,we were only there to drop them off and keep ourselves sane in the terrible heat. 

So we passed the "fake" las vegas..u know, where u THINK you're there but youre really NOT? yeah. Our aunt called us from the hotel and she said that one of our family friends who moved to Vegas was in the hospital (she had cancer) but...now they're saying she only had a couple of days or less to live.  So once we checked into our hotel we went to the hospital.  I've never seen anything like that before. I can't even explain how i felt.  All I know is that i cried so much.  It just reminded me how life is so unpredictable and short, u just never know when its over.  so that turned our whole trip around.  we really did go to vegas for a REAL reason. 

I remember when i was in the first grade my biggest fear was death.  Scary huh? I used to cry and say " I dont wanna die"haha.a...I've tried not to think about it ...and now i'm thinkin about it again.  So therefore I'm thinking of different aspects of my life... will my friends be there for me when i need them? what do i want to accomplish? There's no need to waste time on things that dont matter or count.  I'm over that. 

THE CARLOS WEDDING: SEPTEMBER 5, 2004

Canada here I COME!!! woohHHHoooOOOOO I'm so excited!!!!!! I'm gunna have tons of fun in Vancouver! I'll get to see my cousins and family and my old friends!!!